I suppose that I should just come right out and say it. I have never blogged before in my life. Well, at least by "blogging" definitions. I have always enjoyed writing, and from about my third year in grade school, I was constantly writing things down in notebooks and journals. In fact, I have a drawer at home filled with notebooks brimming with my ramblings. And I do mean ramblings. The topics in these books range from animals to photography, to people I know, to poems about anything and everything, to stories about knights in shining armor(though I will admit that those are from a younger and more fanciful age).
The years went on and I found myself growing up, and as I matured, I was able to look back on my life and see where I had come from. In fact, those notebooks were filled with clues about my childhood and teenage years. However, as I read those old bits of writings, I began to notice a pattern, and it was not a very nice one at that. Throughout the many ink filled pages, I could not read for long without coming across a derogatory remark. And what was worse, was that each and every one was aimed not at someone else, but at me. The pages are riddled with comments like, "I'm too fat" or "I'm not pretty" and "how come I can't be smart?"
Now, in my 21st year, I have finally decided to take the reins of the wild wagon ride that is my health. For the last five months, I have been on a journey to better myself, both physically and mentally. Over the course of those five months I have managed to lose 38lbs. However, while that seems like a pretty substancial amount of weight, I still have 77lbs to go before I reach my goal. When I look at that huge number, I sometimes feel a little overwhelmed by the enormity of the task ahead of me, but then I think about how far I've come, and all the people who are behind me, supporting me, and it calms the sea of uncertainty that rises up in me.
This blog will be a written testimony to the continuation of my journey down the road to a better, healthier, happier me. I know that at times it will be rough, and at times, I will feel like shouting for joy. I welcome you to follow me, for it should prove to be a very interesting and wild ride.
I am so excited to see your progress ... both with your weight as well as writing. I am looking forward to you looking back on your prior writings and see how far you've come. I'm here for you!!
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